Somehow even more worse. I know more shit is gonna pop up and make itself known. I am very much not having a fun time. In my stupid quest to make money I might have worked my body beyond the point of no return.
Which I should have considered that this could possibly tank my wallet for a good while if not years if I do go see a doctor. Yayyy America. I know my job isn't going to help me jack shit.
Sincerely hope that my body isn't permanently wrecked for the rest of my life because I've been taking part in more active hobbies.
Well I have been trying to, except now I think I've been starting to pick up suicidal ideation again. My depression has slowly been coming back. To top it off I may need a new place to stay but I'm broke. My moodswings have been all over the place and I feel like I just keep getting angry.
I feel like this is only the beginning and I hate it. It got bad so fast.
I'm so tired, can't everything just stop?
You've been at this long enough to know that "things" don't just stop, not while you're tired, not even when you're dead, things will continue to happen because that's just life.
ReplyDeleteWhat happened exactly? Did you suffer an injury of some kind?
Sorry, didn't get the email for this for some reason. Maybe it's just been a while. Things keep coming and going, and if this is you showing concern I'd have to ask why.
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