So Far

After I left and never came back I just made sure I disappeared and cut ties with good old dad's friends and himself included of course. Just forget that place ever happened and that despicable person even exists. I applied at some good for nothing subway and somehow got hired cause my shyness was cute? They were nice but also toxic and degrading behind all that "we're friends
 and "we're only trying to help" bs. Anyway I went to work at a theme park after 5 months after that but Im still not sure why they hired someone as awkward as me.
Of course I got pets. A hamster and a chameleon. May have gone out of my depth because what may be my seasonal depression (I think) is back so everything feels kinda pointless and I don't feel like I do much. Any way the date I always hated is up and hopefully I don't have some sort of breakdown like the last few years haha I was hoping I was done with those. Also I might have derealization? Adds up to some reoccurring things in my childhood.
I'm going out on my bike when the weather is hopefully nicer some time the next few days since I have 3 more days off. Maybe grab a slushie. Don't know where I will go since the old forest isn't close by anymore.
Might pick up dead by daylight but might wait for the sales.

Anyway

Forget about my past, me and myself. I can't let it all drag me down forever but its also impossible to avoid. For now I left it all behind and started "a new leaf."
This is supposed to be The End I guess.

Jen

Finally leaving in 2 months

I'm escaping this shithole after I graduate. Renting a friends room with ss and inheritance until I get a job. There's a nice garden, a kitchen to make food, altogether clean and peaceful. I hate being stuck here, why does graduating have to be so important. Here's to hoping the Bastard doesn't go psycho on me before then.