Hamster is going to the vet

Same vet that put down the chameleon. Hopefully the outcome is different.
SSDD
I work tomorrow late. Hopefully it goes well. Tomorrow, the day after, the vet appointment. Sunday I have lunch with my old neighbor. I trust her I think but she hasn't responded to my contact until recently after all these months. After that vet. Rip my money. Yay.

Falling into uncertainty again

I've been feeling more depressed as the days have gone by without speaking to my roommate and only friend. Its been 4 days since she snapped at me saying I lied to her and she doesn't trust me after I bough a fucking fishtank. After she told me do what I want with my money.
Now I feel like everything I'm doing is pointless and I'm going nowhere. Fuck I bet everyone I try so hard to be friendly with at work secretly hate me for being obnoxious. Thats what I get for trying I guess. Maybe I really am a shit person.
I doubt this stupid part time job is going to last me since I'm never going to make it full time. I'll never qualify for anything else though. I feel like I've cornered myself. I never was good with focusing on important stuff. I'm not good at speaking or apologizing.
Fuck