Guess whose self doubt and hate is trying to creep back in

Oh you know just remembering all the embarrassing and shitty things I've done. Most of all worried my job won't want me back when it opens back up cause it is supposed to open in less than 2weeks and my schedule is still empty haha

I mean I shouldn't worry about these things right I should be fine I can always get a new job and try and improve myself more and boost my own confidence while boosting others right. I mean that'll make me feel better if I help people I hope. 

Horrible daydreams

I keep imagining my aunt dying. Sometimes I say good bye but others I don't have the chance. I'm scared of being alone again. I'm scaredof losing my mom again. I'm scared of not being able to say goodbye again. 

I wish it wasn't so late or I would call just to say I love her at least